Just letting you know that an article is in the works. It's LONG folks.
I felt I needed to put down some of the thoughts that I have had in the midst of all the articles being written.
It will be coming out in a few days!
kenny
Monday, July 15, 2013
Saturday, July 13, 2013
He is Worthy!
I've always been one to respond somewhat quickly to requests, posts, blogs, comments but as of July 1st, I have been somewhat distant. Not because I don't care but because I have had little reserve to do much of anything other than take care of myself and my family. (Even that, I feel I am not doing as well as hoped!)
But I also recognize that I am hard on myself. I don't give credit even to myself when due!
I've had the opportunity to reflect back on the last 8 years. It's been somewhat of a whirlwind. So much has transpired in a short 8 years. I don't want to get stuck looking back, but I am compiling my writings and seeing nuances of thought and emotions. Wow! Crazy!
What I realized is that I experienced what to many would be considered serious trauma. When I returned from Vancouver I connected with a ministry, and within a year was in a Full Time Ministry position. I don't have any regrets, but if I was to talk to someone in the similar space, I would caution them to consider taking a few years to heal and restore before jumping into ministry full time. Then I got married...lost babies, had a baby, lost a baby! All the while trying to heal and restore!...breath...and now I'm tired! Life has a way of catching up on you!
I think in many regards, I became a poster child for the Church! A symbol of hope! As did Paula, our marriage and in many respects our daughter as well! I understand that people really do need hope! Hope for their own loved ones. When we hear a heart moving testimony it evokes hope!
1 Peter 3:15 But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have.
Revelation 12:11 "And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death...
We know in our hearts that to share our testimony does cause people's hope to rise. That's good! But it can't be the be all and end all in terms of our growth or identity. Our hope needs to come from Jesus Christ. Our identity solely in Jesus.
I don't want to be a poster child, nor do I want our marriage and child to be plastered on posters..."Come see the ex-gays...and their kid! Look what God has done! Look what He can do in your loved ones life!"
I want people to meet Jesus...PERIOD! To find their identity in Him. He's the one we need to plaster on a poster...and worship...not man, not us! Sure, I'll share the hope within me, and be ready with the word of my testimony...because I don't fear death and I'm not afraid to lose my life, but I will always lift up Jesus higher than my life and even what He has done in my life.
He is worthy to be praised...forever and a day!
But I also recognize that I am hard on myself. I don't give credit even to myself when due!
I've had the opportunity to reflect back on the last 8 years. It's been somewhat of a whirlwind. So much has transpired in a short 8 years. I don't want to get stuck looking back, but I am compiling my writings and seeing nuances of thought and emotions. Wow! Crazy!
What I realized is that I experienced what to many would be considered serious trauma. When I returned from Vancouver I connected with a ministry, and within a year was in a Full Time Ministry position. I don't have any regrets, but if I was to talk to someone in the similar space, I would caution them to consider taking a few years to heal and restore before jumping into ministry full time. Then I got married...lost babies, had a baby, lost a baby! All the while trying to heal and restore!...breath...and now I'm tired! Life has a way of catching up on you!
I think in many regards, I became a poster child for the Church! A symbol of hope! As did Paula, our marriage and in many respects our daughter as well! I understand that people really do need hope! Hope for their own loved ones. When we hear a heart moving testimony it evokes hope!
1 Peter 3:15 But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have.
Revelation 12:11 "And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death...
We know in our hearts that to share our testimony does cause people's hope to rise. That's good! But it can't be the be all and end all in terms of our growth or identity. Our hope needs to come from Jesus Christ. Our identity solely in Jesus.
I don't want to be a poster child, nor do I want our marriage and child to be plastered on posters..."Come see the ex-gays...and their kid! Look what God has done! Look what He can do in your loved ones life!"
I want people to meet Jesus...PERIOD! To find their identity in Him. He's the one we need to plaster on a poster...and worship...not man, not us! Sure, I'll share the hope within me, and be ready with the word of my testimony...because I don't fear death and I'm not afraid to lose my life, but I will always lift up Jesus higher than my life and even what He has done in my life.
He is worthy to be praised...forever and a day!
Friday, July 05, 2013
Sabbatical Rest...
So it's July 5th!
Unemployed...no income...and yet...God is sustaining and showing me how to live life, differently than before.
I'm not saying that the way I was living before was wrong, but I believe that we all move and transform as God directs our steps, and especially through TRANSITIONS.
Today, I write from my home office. (screened tent outside on the deck) I look around at the abundant green, the plants blooming and unfinished fence, the paint peeling off of the garage...and I give thanks. Thankfulness is what I am choosing to focus on during this time. I could easily complain. YES, I complain. There have been days when I have been consumed with wanting a totally renovated house, a fence, a car, a new garage, when I've focused on 'others' rather than being content with where things are at and focusing in on God who supplies all our needs. That's sinfulness. It's coveting what others have! So I repent and refocus my eyes on the Lord, the sustain-er and giver of all good things...in His time.
John 10:14,15 reads "I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me - just as the Father knows me and I know the Father - I lay down my life for the sheep."
Jesus is a good shepherd...and He knows me and has laid down his life for me...for Paula and Phoebe. Do not be anxious about anything...anything!
What am I like as a sheep? Well, my eyes will tend to turn to the next green grassy hill, even though I'm already grazing in one. I am bent to look down, not taking in account of everything that is going on around me. Sometimes I need the shepherd to herd me back (sometimes with the help of a trusted dog!)
Sheep are possibly the dumbest animals around...and yet...in John we read that Jesus knows us and we know him. That we can trust his voice and his sovereign plan for us.
The plan is to rest. To seek the Lord in new ways and to find a foundation that is firm outside of Ministry. I feel called to ministry, yet it can't be the thing that sustains my relationship with the Lord. To be honest, I feel a bit burned out. It's been difficult the past year and I know without a doubt that God worked through every situation to bring me to this place today. So I could stop...chill out...and to pursue him fully, in new and fresh ways.
It's also a time for our family to have some fun. It's been a long time coming. I recognize that our holidays were always tacked on to a ministry event (which meant that we often were decompressing what we heard during our holidays, rather than just enjoying life around us!) We are in need of this season. In 7 years we've traveled extensively for ministry and now we need to get to a cabin, sit by a lake, go fishing, play in a splash park, go for walks, fly kites etc. (if anyone can help in regards to this let us know, finances are tight, we don't have a car...and so we need to be creative during this time)
I've also recognized that our families often are the ones that get the back burner. Our siblings, our nieces and nephews, our Mom's and Dad's have often gotten the left overs of Kenny and Paula and Phoebe and this too needs to change. I miss knowing who they are, at a heart level.
So a Sabbatical Rest? Yes, that's what we feel God has called us into this summer. I may be very...VERY slow in responding to emails, or phone calls, but I will get back to you eventually. Please know that this is not a reflection of who you are or how I think of you. I love each of you, but I need to limit media! I will hopefully blog on a more regular basis, and am very much open to times with friends...eating watermelon, sipping wine on the deck by a fire! We can't say we can travel to you...but you can travel to us. We may not have wine...or watermelon, but your free to bring some!
I'm very much looking forward in this time, knowing that God is very much in control and in tune with everything that is going on.
We cherish your prayers for us as a family, as we take this time to pray, rest, transition, make fun memories, and seek God's Kingdom.
For those who have an inclination to support us financially during this transition time, you can private message me at kennyp66@gmail.com Thank you for those who have shown an interest in doing this for us. It has blessed us tremendously.
Love...Kenny...and Paula & Phoebe
Unemployed...no income...and yet...God is sustaining and showing me how to live life, differently than before.
I'm not saying that the way I was living before was wrong, but I believe that we all move and transform as God directs our steps, and especially through TRANSITIONS.
Today, I write from my home office. (screened tent outside on the deck) I look around at the abundant green, the plants blooming and unfinished fence, the paint peeling off of the garage...and I give thanks. Thankfulness is what I am choosing to focus on during this time. I could easily complain. YES, I complain. There have been days when I have been consumed with wanting a totally renovated house, a fence, a car, a new garage, when I've focused on 'others' rather than being content with where things are at and focusing in on God who supplies all our needs. That's sinfulness. It's coveting what others have! So I repent and refocus my eyes on the Lord, the sustain-er and giver of all good things...in His time.
John 10:14,15 reads "I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me - just as the Father knows me and I know the Father - I lay down my life for the sheep."
Jesus is a good shepherd...and He knows me and has laid down his life for me...for Paula and Phoebe. Do not be anxious about anything...anything!
What am I like as a sheep? Well, my eyes will tend to turn to the next green grassy hill, even though I'm already grazing in one. I am bent to look down, not taking in account of everything that is going on around me. Sometimes I need the shepherd to herd me back (sometimes with the help of a trusted dog!)
Sheep are possibly the dumbest animals around...and yet...in John we read that Jesus knows us and we know him. That we can trust his voice and his sovereign plan for us.
The plan is to rest. To seek the Lord in new ways and to find a foundation that is firm outside of Ministry. I feel called to ministry, yet it can't be the thing that sustains my relationship with the Lord. To be honest, I feel a bit burned out. It's been difficult the past year and I know without a doubt that God worked through every situation to bring me to this place today. So I could stop...chill out...and to pursue him fully, in new and fresh ways.
It's also a time for our family to have some fun. It's been a long time coming. I recognize that our holidays were always tacked on to a ministry event (which meant that we often were decompressing what we heard during our holidays, rather than just enjoying life around us!) We are in need of this season. In 7 years we've traveled extensively for ministry and now we need to get to a cabin, sit by a lake, go fishing, play in a splash park, go for walks, fly kites etc. (if anyone can help in regards to this let us know, finances are tight, we don't have a car...and so we need to be creative during this time)
I've also recognized that our families often are the ones that get the back burner. Our siblings, our nieces and nephews, our Mom's and Dad's have often gotten the left overs of Kenny and Paula and Phoebe and this too needs to change. I miss knowing who they are, at a heart level.
So a Sabbatical Rest? Yes, that's what we feel God has called us into this summer. I may be very...VERY slow in responding to emails, or phone calls, but I will get back to you eventually. Please know that this is not a reflection of who you are or how I think of you. I love each of you, but I need to limit media! I will hopefully blog on a more regular basis, and am very much open to times with friends...eating watermelon, sipping wine on the deck by a fire! We can't say we can travel to you...but you can travel to us. We may not have wine...or watermelon, but your free to bring some!
I'm very much looking forward in this time, knowing that God is very much in control and in tune with everything that is going on.
We cherish your prayers for us as a family, as we take this time to pray, rest, transition, make fun memories, and seek God's Kingdom.
For those who have an inclination to support us financially during this transition time, you can private message me at kennyp66@gmail.com Thank you for those who have shown an interest in doing this for us. It has blessed us tremendously.
Love...Kenny...and Paula & Phoebe
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